Poem: “She broke”

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Poem: “She broke”

She broke

By Patrick T. Reardon

She broke my arm when I was a baby.

It wasn’t my arm but call it an arm.

It mended crooked, at an odd angle,

thickened, clotted, stiff instead of supple,

a wrinkled butterfly wing, an antelope limp.

I could not swing a baseball bat

or brush a lover’s hair.

I still have the broken arm.

My brother’s hurt was worse. He died of it.

She tattooed her scripture on my spine, her

gospel proclamations on the inside of my

skull, her dire psalms on the bottom of my

right heel, on the sweep of my right hip,

black etched lines, leaking, insinuating.

The tree grows out of my

chest, another from my

forearm, my jaw, my

left shin. Syrup tapped,

dripped, fermented, sold,

re-sold.  A forest where

Abel kills, Noah drowns,

the Messiah leper never

gets the ghost back.

Let me open the apartment door of her

limping mother in the kitchen, baking

bread, breaking bread, the afternoon

sun jeweling soil and backyard dung

and growing things and creeping things

and the newborn and the dying and the

dead. Her bread was sprinkled with flour.

Two candles under a throat to bless away.

My brother used a nickel-plated

revolver instead, a blessing of

the endless white.

He was a wall

of alternating

anger and pain.

You try to live in that home.

He wanted to stomp-dance

on the harridan nun’s grave. 

Now, with his somber bullet,

his ashes are curb muck, roof

dust, grit in the hop-skip girl’s

hair scattered in the wind. 

No dancing on his grave for

anyone who hated him or loved. 

Patrick T. Reardon

5.15.19

This poem originally appeared in the April, 2019 issue of Esthetic Apostle.

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